This blog probably is the rarest among all because I write in the Study Room in Universiti Teknologi Malaysia. Although it is a splendid experience but there's also mixed feeling that encountered me today. I will not say but just keep it myself but right now really I'm feeling totally stranger as I have to act as UTM's Student (due to illegal entrance).
But surely for me, I feel that I have wrongly purchase bus ticket which I bought little bit early than it supposed to be. At first I thought that some of my friends have already going back to their home and that's why I bought the ticket earlier. Suddenly, my friend said that he is not going back at that time while I have already bought the ticket. Well, for me at first, it's okay because I can handle myself when I go to Johor and settle my self without any problem but it is another way around. Some things had happened and it costs a lot. I had to be patient.
If I just follow my heart, definitely things will getting worst but now just the real thing should I do is just be patient. I feel terribly lonely, separated and low self esteem. What I can do is just pray to Allah and hope that things will be settle peacefully. Right now I don't really know what is going to happen but I pray a lot so that things will not be worst.
I also admit that somehow I had made mistake but what I really know that I am also a human. Will always make mistake and sometimes act terribly without thinking and for that I really want to say sorry. Maybe because I feel stress and depress due to the lack of sleep and also tired of being 6 hours in the bus and also I always be patient and kept every problems inside and suddenly it blow terribly.
Hope this will become better not worst, insyaAllah.
28 November 2010
Study Room, UTM